Realised I have been neglecting this as the last time I posted I was 25 weeks pregnant!

I am now the proud mummy to a gorgeous 7 week old girl called Mollie who was born on the 14th of January 2012 weighing 8lb 4oz.

I can’t remember life without her and she is my absolute world.

I was induced on Friday the 13th, the day before my due date, as I had severe SPD which caused me to be on crutches for the last few months of my pregnancy! I couldn’t walk without being in agonising pain.

Worth it!

My labour went well. Induced at 10am and after 3 lots of morphine, an epidural and shit loads of gas and air later, Mollie arrived at 02.17am

So here I am now, 7 weeks later, introducing the best thing that has ever happened to me.

Mollie Janet Haldane-Hanlon

And having some serious cravings for bonfires?!! Drove past one the other night and  my god it smelt so good I just wanted to chew on warm burnt wood….? Sounds rank when i type it out but my god the thought of it is enough to make my mouth start watering!

In other news, I am feeling bigger than ever recently. I found pictures of myself the weeks before I fell pregnant and my face is so much skinnier and I have a great wee ass! Now I’m a two tonne tess and not enjoying it. Never felt so unattractive in my life so I’m thinking a big pampering session is desperately needed.

I have also been a non smoker for 20 weeks now! wowww time has flown by, only 15 weeks till my little starfish is due! What a scary thought but I can not wait to get my ass to the gym and get in shape again. I am determind to look better than I have ever looked before after she is born and regain some confidence.

Stretch marks on my back and boobs will need to get out of my life also, that is something I just can’t handle…tiny little purple reminders of how quickly my body is getting bigger. I also can’t put my own shoes on anymore unless they are slip on, which isn’t really convienient due to it being winter soon and will be needing to wear boots! oh dear.

Today! Feeling a bit strained recently, the pain from my pelvis has gone a bit but I still find it uncomfortable. The baby physio classes I went to taught me how to get up out of bed and such in the morning which is a bit of a pain in the arse having to remember, especially when you have just gotten up, but it’s something I have to remember as to not rip my stomach muscles.

My bump has gotten a bit bigger, but I’m still not showing as much as I thought I would be.

As of Monday I am restarting my driving lessons also, not sure when my theory runs out but some point in January I believe, which is also when Mollie is due so it will be in my best interests to try and pass I think. which means I have roughly around 16 weeks to resit my lessons and do my test. shitting it! I hate pressure!!

Oh well, I suppose it would mean I could pick up my car from my dads and drive it down to mine sooner too! Just need to get a new battery for it considering it’s been sat in the barn next to the tractors for a while now. Poor wee car. Needs a good valet also as every time I have driven it I’ve let all the dogs pile in with me and come for a drive, so it’s full of muddy paw prints.

Another thing I have realised that I can’t do so well anymore is paint my toe nails or put on my shoes! Definatly not comfortable at the moment. Hopeing the next 16 weeks will go fast as I am so bored waiting on her!

Last week out for lunch with Ashley and her little boy Dylan.

To all ladies who think when you are pregnant you just put weight on to your bump! 

oh no no no

As you can see from me, your face fills out, your boobs get rather big (I have gone from a B cup to a DD and they are STILL growing), your bump gets bigger, and your ass will get huge! I have never had as big of an arse as I do now, and before hand my ass was still a bit big. Colin is loving it, I am hating it.

Make sure you stock up on Bio oil! I have gone through a whole bottle of it already and I still have 16 weeks to go, in which I will probably balloon out.

I am so angry! At absolutely everything. I have found myself despising the general public and losing faith in them after the 23 weeks I have been pregnant.

People seem to ignore common curtosy and be so self involved it actually scares me.

You can clearly tell I am expecting and people still push right into me and push me out of the way.

Apparently the fact I have a big baby bump also gives people the right to stare at me. I found myself yesterday confronting someone about this by saying “Problem? nah???” That’s not me! I don’t say these things to people but they just anger me so much!

I also can’t sleep at night due to heartburn. I have never had heart burn in my life before but this is so bad it’s keeping me up till 3am. My sleep is already disturbed by constantly waking myself up when I move and my pelvis/back hurts, but it is disturbed yet again at 6am by Colins alarm going off in my ear, then I am finally awoken at 8am by a boy who delivers a paper to downstairs every morning, SLAMMING the door. TWICE! No matter how hard I try to get back to sleep after this it just does not happen. I am close to going out and chasing after him screaming abuse!

Have spoken to Colin about ever falling pregnant again and I can safely say I really don’t think I want to be. Adopting might be a good plan for us I think but then again, a newborn is the most gorgeous little thing in the whole world. I can’t begin to explain how excited I am about meeting my beautiful little Mollie!

I’m just counting down the weeks until she is due, and I have 16 and a bit to go!

Thank Fuck!

Mamas and Papas travel system which we are were bought as a gift from my mum! £570 for the whole thing which is

• car seat
• carry cot
• pram
• adaptors for car seat

Definatly recomend going to mamas and papas! A bit more expensive than some places but always have good deals on, and come with a garuntee that lasts a year the day that the baby is born! If anything goes wrong with it also, they will send it away to get fixed AND send us a courtesy pram sorta thing!

We were origionally going to go to Mothercare as they have even better deals on for travel systems price wise but we then learned that they also may be going into administraition which would be the worst possible scenario, especially if we were going to be going through the baby price plan where you can pay up over a certain amount of time and recieve the pram at the end of it. Imagine paying £500 and then the company going bust and you wouldn’t get your pram AND would of lost all that money!? LAST thing anyone needs!

A few of the outfits, shoes and vests I have got for my little miss. That is a very small chair, not giant clothes ha!

So after walking about the majoirty of yesterday, I woke up throughout the night having serious pains in my pelvis and legs and found it difficult to move.

When I tried to get out of bed today I phycially couldn’t get out of bed due to the amount of pain I was actually in. I have been told to keep an eye on it and if it progresses to get in touch with my midwife or the hospital as it could be something more serious!

I have also been experiencing itchy soles of my feet, a really deep itch that I can’t get rid of and makes my feet feel like they are on fire, apparently I am to also keep an eye on this as it could be an infection to the liver.

I am getting my blood taken in 6 weeks anyway, but might have to before hand too. the joys! Absolutely hate getting my blood taken, especially as I end up nearly passing out and puking every time they do it.

The top and bottoms of my back are also in serious agony today and sitting here writing this probably isn’t helping so I think I may run a bath soon, but that will involve bending over to turn the taps on which I can’t actually do so I may have to wait for Colin. What a fun packed Friday I am having!

I have been told to take paracetemal for it but I really don’t want to put anything into my system like that, as anything that goes into me, goes into Mollie. So for now I will have to endure the pain and stop complaining, but I really can’t comprehend how painful this actually is. A G O N Y!

I have been sat eating cereal and sandwiches, listening to Taking Back Sunday all day and drinking tea trying to think think THINK of middle names for my little princess. We need something that means something to us and our families. Me and my mothers middle names are “Jane” which is essencially my grans name with a “T” at the end taken off so we like that, then we also like “Ann” or “Marie” which is Colins mums name but don’t want the whole name in there. It’s just so difficult as her last name is going to be double barrel “Haldane-Hanlon” as we are not married yet and I don’t plan on changing my name anyway, but just making mine double barrel also. Decisions Decisions!!! Something I am not very good at.

So as I have just started this blog I feel I should probably introduce myself and how the past 22 weeks have went for me!

My name is Robyn and I turned 19 in April. I have been with my partner, Colin, 21, on and off since the begining of 2010. We have lived together for around a year now which has taught me to grow up an awful lot. Since finding out we were expecting a baby we have both grown up even more as the two of us are about to become three! I found out I was pregnant when I was 5 weeks and after being quite a heavy smoker I gave up that day and haven’t had one since! Very difficult but worth it to make sure my baby is beautifully healthy!

I have had a pretty easy pregnancy so far with the odd hickup. At 6 weeks I was weighed by the midwife and was 9 stone, since then I have put on 16 lbs which is quite a lot considering I am only half way through! Keep in mind I am a 5’4 wee thing usually so I am feeling a bit whalish now lol. Felt nautious up until about 14 weeks, was actually sick at 15 weeks but that was due to abdominal pain being that bad and after hours of tests and scans they confirmed baby was fine and the female body does crazy things sometimes, and then I began to actually show at 16 weeks!

At 20 weeks my mum came to my scan with me as Colin just got a new job and couldn’t make it sadly, but we discovered that we are having a little girl!!! Her head was burried deep in my pelvis though so they couldn’t do all the checks they needed to do and I had to go back to the hospital a week later and got a FOURTH SCAN!!! It was confirmed that I’m having a little girl and we have decided on the name Mollie.

Since then I have been buying all girly things, and Colins getting very protective of her already! I am also living out of maternity wear and have had to buy bigger bras, going from a 32b to a 34/36DD! I have also found that there is a huge gap in the market for stylish maternity wear, and only a few high street shops actually sell it, and even then the stuff they do sell is usually VERY over priced and not actually that nice unless you like the whole 1950s spinster look/cheap taccy chav mum look! What a great choice for us expectant mums, especially those who don’t want to lose themselves during the pregnancy and want a stylish bump.

At 20 weeks I still hadn’t felt any movement and then suddenly when walking down the street I felt a great big POP in my tummy which I knew instantly was her kicking me, but then nothing for another week and since then I have felt her move constantly. Flipping around, kicking, rolling and generally having a party in my tummy. Now at 23 weeks she is kicking so hard you can see it pop out of my tummy so I know exactly where her foot is and can even feel her foot! So I poke her back and she kicks even harder back. Responsive ;)!

I have also probably been doing more than I should be with decorating, moving things and such, but I like things done my way, and although we are advised not to do much when pregnant, I hate being treated like I can’t do anything! Drives me nuts, so I re papered my whole bedroom and done the bathroom up. Oops :P!

I would say this is a big enough re-cap of me and my bump so far, so I will just update from now on! Thanks for reading xx